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As children bring their broken toys
With tears for us to mend,
I brought my broken dreams to God
Because He was my Friend.
But instead of leaving Him
In peace to work alone,
I hung around and tried to help
With ways that were my own.
At last I snatched
them back and cried,
"How can you be so slow?"
"My child," He said, "What could I do?
You never let them go."
What does one say to a friend whose heart is aching?
When life's challenges seem to be eroding the hopes and dreams of the future...
Nothing on the scale of a tsunami.
More like a powerful spring tide,
Nevertheless, every time the moon is right, it creeps up the beach a little higher and a little stronger.
As the deer pants for streams of water,
so my soul pants for you, my God.
so my soul pants for you, my God.
My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When can I go and meet with God?
Most of us have been there, haven't we? So many times.
Worn out by the relentlessness of life's challenges.
Spiritually it's like wandering on a deserted beach with nothing to drink... the tide is coming in again... it gets harder and harder to keep walking. Tired. Parched.
Spiritually it's like wandering on a deserted beach with nothing to drink... the tide is coming in again... it gets harder and harder to keep walking. Tired. Parched.
I need fresh water.
Thirsty.
Thirsty.
So thirsty for God. He is the only one who can give me streams of living water...
I need him so desperately.
Yet I find myself crying salty tears of disappointment and disillusionment - there's nothing else to eat.
My tears have been my food
day and night,
while people say to me all day long,
‘Where is your God?’
day and night,
while people say to me all day long,
‘Where is your God?’
I begin to wonder that very thing myself. Where is my God in this mess? Those who do not share my faith in God think he's left me... and it appears he has.
My bones suffer mortal agony
as my foes taunt me,
saying to me all day long,
‘Where is your God?’
as my foes taunt me,
saying to me all day long,
‘Where is your God?’
I'm suffering inside and trying to hide it from the world. And there's a deep sense of being alone in this trouble, everyone else seems to be getting along just fine... except me.
Casting my mind back to happier times does not help - joy seems almost elusive now. It won't do to dwell on what used to be...
"Once upon a dream" when my hopes were young, and my heart expected a fairytale.
"Once upon a dream" when my hopes were young, and my heart expected a fairytale.
These things I remember
as I pour out my soul:
how I used to go to the house of God
under the protection of the Mighty One
with shouts of joy and praise
among the festive throng.
Instead I feel like I am drowning. It would be so easy to give up... I'm done. Or undone.
Deep calls to deep
in the roar of your waterfalls;
all your waves and breakers
have swept over me.
Is this really what living the victorious Christian life is supposed to look like?
Not much overcoming. So much defeat. And guilt.
Perhaps I'm doing this all wrong?
Not much overcoming. So much defeat. And guilt.
Perhaps I'm doing this all wrong?
Why, my soul, are you downcast?
Why so disturbed within me?
Yet, there is still hope! Even though I ask God,
‘Why have you forgotten me? Why must I go about mourning, oppressed by the enemy?’
I already know that I am not abandoned on sinking sand - there is a Rock to cling to...
Put your hope in God,
for I will yet praise him,
my Saviour and my God.
And so I told my friend what I have to keep telling myself when my friends, my family, my church, my job or my health fail me, when my hopes and dreams seem to be washing away... I must let go of trying mend my life, or the people in my life, and instead cling to the One who saves.
By day the Lord directs his love,
By day the Lord directs his love,
at night his song is with me –
a prayer to the God of my life.
And so I pray to my God who loves me and is able to save. He can mend what is broken. As a child I approach my Father and with tears running down my face I whisper...
"Daddy, my dream is broken. I was trying to be careful with it... But it slipped out of my hands and shattered on the floor... I can't get it back together again... it's in a million pieces. Please, please could you mend it? I know you can fix anything, and I loved it so much."
"Child, my precious child, nothing is impossible for me. I am able to do so much more than you can ask or imagine. I delight over you, but I want you to see that it is not a mended dream that is going to bring you lasting joy - it's me, your Father. Fixing a dream is easy, but instead I chose to do what is hard... it cost me everything, for what needs mending is your heart. I know it hurts, and it seems to take a long time, but when I have made your heart completely new, then you will find that all your dreams come true. Because then, and only then, you will delight in me, the Dreamgiver, and you will find that I am everything your heart desires."
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